Cheyenne Jackson, out actor, turns 50 and reflects on his
life:
“Today I’m 50. I’ve been waiting a long time to do the Molly
Shannon ‘I’m 50!’-high kick, and now I can for real. 50. A number that once
felt impossibly far away… now feels somehow right on time. This past year has
been a reckoning. My dog died. My best friend [Broadway performer Gavin
Creel]died.
Hollywood
halted. Los Angeles burned. Grief has been my steady companion. ‘Hey girl, I see you’re back,’ I say to her. She lingers for a while, we dance a bit … it’s slow and flirty at first, then it morphs quickly into a WWF
match. I finally push her off, then she floats along like a burnt-sugar-scented
cloud. What once was sweet is now scorched. My beloved children are almost nine
… How? They are growing into their own bold, beautiful selves, and they remind
me every day that joy is loud, messy, and everywhere … if I stay present enough to notice. This year I stepped fully into my writing, not as a side
passion,
but
as another extension of my art. My tough new lit agent was worried I would
suck. Turns out I don’t. He
was surprised. I wasn’t—but pretended to be. It’s a little thing I like to do.
Pretending, you see … it’s been a theme in my life. The
fear of not being good enough always nearby, waiting in the woods like a wet
creature ready to pounce and flog me before I can do it all by myself. I ache
to connect. I’m working on it. My friends push through my isolation. I
refocused on my sobriety. I took it for granted. Treated it like gravity. So
constant, you forget it’s holding you up. Trying to let myself feel more, hide
less. And yes, like so many immediate families, due to this impossible
political hellscape, we’ve navigated differences. Tensions. Unsaid things. But
beneath it all, I’m still holding on to hope. For healing. Or maybe some ‘Love
Can Build a Bridge’-style-JUDDS sh*t to happen and make it all better. And yet,
through every tear, every missed soccer goal, every broken toe (mine), every
broken foot (Willow’s), is [my husband] Jason. My love. My north star. He sees
me clearly, loves me ANYWAY, and reminds me (daily) that I’m not alone in any
of this. So here’s to 50. Not a finish line. Not a starting line. Not a
reinvention. Less performing. More being. And definitely more high kicks.”
What a great post to celebrate a milestone, with honesty,
joy, and family and love and insight into where you were, where you are, and
where you’re going.
Happy Birthday, sir.
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Unfair to Rosie. She is doing what she can with words from a refuge. That's a blast from the past, Torchwood and the the gay Captain Jack Harkness. I can barely remember what it was but I saw it at the time.
ReplyDeleteI have no issue with her response to The Felon ... I called it a spot on take-down.
DeleteMy issue is that someone with privilege and wealth and social media presence leaving America, when America needs all of our voices, and moving to another country to feel "safe" while regular Americans march and protest and resist. If you love America you fight for her, you don't run.
Rosie ALWAYS gets under Cheeto’s skin. Always. It’s about power and he has no power over her.
ReplyDeleteCheyenne is fifty?? How??
And I was wondering about Barrowman… I think I remember the scandal! He was following the script but people wanted to be outraged?
Typical. I hope he makes a comeback.
XOXO
I guess my annoyance with Rosie is her entitlement, running off when The Felon gets elected and not staying to fight and use her influence and power to resist.
DeleteEllen, too.
xoxo
I can't make up my mind about folks like Rosie....they anger me for leaving rather than staying to fight, while, at the same time, I envy them **because** they're able to get the hell out.
ReplyDeleteI don't recall Barrowman. But I do recall a lot of people were thrown under buses during the MeToo movement --- and some who had actually been assaulted were told to "STFU." A lot of screwed-up outcomes. I hope he makes it back. Some never will get back, despite having done nothing wrong and even proved it in court.
I think you should stay and fight, case closed. Just because you have the money means you get to run off? I am not here for that.
DeleteRosie rocks! Cheyenne is learning that life truly beings at 50. I always felt the Barrowman accusations were a bit vindictive similar to the outrage expressed at the Al Franken photograph. Certain people were looking for targets and he was a handsome, successful gay man.
ReplyDeleteRosie doesn't rock; she left this country because she thinks it was going to get bad? Are her children going hungry? Is her healthcare at risk? Are her neighbors being rounded up? Nope, cuz she ran.
DeleteI don’t know because I’m not in Rosie’s position, but I think I too would leave to protect my child. I have no clue what would be the absolutely right thing to do. At minimum, I LOVE what she wrote to the orange menace. Cheyenne Jackson is dreamy. I always liked John Barrowman. His behavior was childish.
ReplyDeleteRosie's children, as the children of a very rich mother, were never in danger; they weren't going to lose their school lunches or their health care. It's BS. I'm glad she takes on The Felon but I'd have more respect for her is she resisted while living here.
DeleteCancel culture can be tyrannical, it's true.
ReplyDeleteA little harsh on Rosie, though! She can still resist from Ireland and in fact is doing so. I don't think it's fair to expect her to stay put in the USA if she feels she can no longer live there.
How is she resisting? Living is decent Ireland and not facing any of the problems here in this country? She doesn't have to live here but her statement that she's protecting her family, while she let's other families suffer, pisses me off.
DeleteLotsa of very wealthy, very famous people, are staying here and fighting for America IN America. Not baiting a felon with a social media post.
🤔 I rarely disagree with you, Bob, except about architectural styles 😉, but I'm really torn on the Rosie O'Donnell issue. I really wish she hadn't publicly stated she'll return from Ireland after the rest of us clean up the country (paraphrase). But, I lean toward her side on two things. She has spent decades as a target of horrible hate and derision and took it all like a champ even when it was aimed at her children. If she can afford a break away, I won't begrudge her that even though it isn't working because Trump is still attacking!
ReplyDeleteBut, the second thing for which I'm on her side is more important. She is still raising a 12 y.o. child. Clay is nonbinary, on the autism spectrum, and has a very difficult eating disorder (AFRID). Clay is a possible target in many ways, including they/them pronouns, and deserves to grow up in a more accepting nation. That's a pretty good reason to tip the scale to the side of Rosie, the Mom. 😍
But, regarding her son, she has the wealth and power and privilege to see that her son gets the best care, but what about other children? Sorry, she ran; it got tough, and she ran. America, for the most part, is very accepting of LGBTQ+ people, and Rosie, again, has the wealth and power to make sure of that.
DeleteMy marriage will be turning fifty in two weeks. I was babysitting infant grandbabies at fifty. They are now grown ass women! I've discovered that at thirty the milestones become rolling stones, and you wake up pushing seventy and wondering what happened. Sorry, Cheyenne Jackson kind of got to me, in a good way though.
ReplyDeleteHappy Early Big Deal Anniversary!!!! 🥂🍰🥂
DeleteThank you, Bobulah. Going camping to celebrate. Getting away from it all at Big Trees.
DeleteI hear what you had to say about Rosie O'Donnell. It was a question of fight or flight and she chose the latter. Surrounded by MAGA culture, I guess that there are a lot of decent Americans who simply keep quiet, enjoying a low profile while the right wing madness rattles their windows.
ReplyDeleteFlight annoys me, especially given her wreath and privilege.
DeletePoor people fleeing their countries for a better life? All for it. A rich, entitled woman with the menas and cash to run and not stay and use her influence to fight gets under my skin.
the dog's mother
ReplyDeletexoxo :-)
And I have just the birthday present for Cheyenne Jackson!
ReplyDeleteAnd I loved that shot back that Rosie O'Donnell gave Donald Trump. But I was scared from 1 to 10 she has always graded my nerves. Her and the whole show of The View. All those women on there seem to be cut from the same cloth. Nothing against them but I've seen that show they all talk over each other and it drives me nuts.
You are wrong about Rosie. Do you even have children. If you have, would you not try to bring them up without seeing their mother bullied by donny every chance he gets. She is fighting from afar.
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