Thursday, November 26, 2020

Thank.Full.

I first posted a version of this back in Ott-Eight, a few days after I started this here blog thing, and have edited it, as need be, and reposted it every year, to remind me of where I was then, what I thought then, and what I wanted out of life. And every year as I repost it, I realize that the more things change the more they stay the same.

Now, not to brag, but I've been told that I am an extremely polite person. I was raised on Please and Thank You, Yes Ma'am, No Sir, and I still act that way today.

True story: I was selected for jury duty when we lived in Miami and when it was my turn to be questioned, I stood up in the very narrow aisle and put my hands behind my back. As I was questioned, I replied Yes sir and No Sir. The judge stopped and smiled.

"Are you in the military?" he asked.

"No, sir" I said. "I was raised by a military man and a Southern woman."

True story: A few years before that, while living in California, I was in a grocery store buying a birthday cake for a co-worker. I asked if I may please order a cake. May I please have a name iced onto it? I pleased and thank you'd my way through the entire process and finally as the girl was leaving to finish my order, she turned and said, “I think you are the politest person I've ever waited on."

I smiled and said, "Could you just shut up, please, and ice my damn cake!"

When all else fails slip into sarcasm. That's my motto, and I’m thankful for that, too, but I digress.

Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday, probably because there are no gifts involved, except for the gift of time; time spent with loved ones and friends; the gift of thanks. A day of thanks; a truly American holiday, like 4th of July, but one we celebrate not with picnics and beer, firecrackers and sparklers, but with a meal shared with friends and family, and pets, always the pets.

I have so much to be thankful for again this year. Yes, the usual family and friends and health and happiness, blah blah blah, everyone says that, but this year, in the Age Of COVID, good health is a great thing. I am thankful that Carlos and I are fine; our families are healthy; our friends, and all of you fellow bloggers, are healthy. That’s worth a healthy dose of Thanks.

And I am thankful, as well as hopeful, that America is turning again, away from hate and division and criminality, toward decency and inclusion and hope. We are coming out of a dark time, though we’re not there yet, but I think we all learned earlier this month that exercising our right to vote means to do that every single time and be thankful that we live in a country where we have that freedom. And it feels like the pendulum is finally swinging back towards understanding and acceptance, and the hope that we had for a few years. I am thankful for that.

As a gay man I know all too well that … cue PSA music … It Gets Better.

Twenty years ago, when we began this ride, Carlos and I couldn’t be legally married anywhere in America, and here we are now, married for five years … in South Carolina … and every state in this country.  I am still thankful for that. 

And let me be clear … even with the Hate Speech, and hateful actions, that we have been hearing, and seeing, for the last four years, they will never be able to take that away from us; we are husband and husband and that’s how it will stay. That bell cannot be unrung, no matter who says what. No matter who sits on the Supreme Court.

Trust. And be thankful.

I am thankful for the years I had with my sister—I miss her every single day—because of the things she taught me and continues to teach me. I am grateful to her four daughters, all of whom she raised so well that when Carlos and I told them we were getting married, they all responded, “Now he really is our Uncle.”

I am thankful for my Dad. He didn’t ask for a gay son, but he got one; he didn’t know what to do with a gay son, but he did the best he could. And, when the time came to marry Carlos, it made my Dad’s day that he could be there. I wish every gay person could have a Dad like mine, who sees that change is good, and sees that not everyone is alike—even in your own family—but who loves you just the same. I still get goosebumps when I hear my Dad tell people about his son and his husband. Who knew that would happen?

I am thankful to my Mom, especially today. Thanksgiving was her holiday; cooking for her family was my mother’s greatest joy and a great gift to all of us. I am thankful that I can keep that tradition alive and can see my Mom in myself as Carlos and I cook dinner for ourselves, and, in other years,  friends. I am thankful for her kindness, even to those who were unkind to her; I am grateful for her laughter, which I can still hear in my head, and the way she would say, ‘Bye bye, sweetie, I love you,’ as we ended a phone call.

I am thankful for icy cold mornings and clear blue skies … colored leaves falling. I am thankful for small dogs and cats because, well, I'm bigger than them and I will always beat them ... just channeling a little Joan Crawford and Christina at the pool.

I am thankful for Carlos. Every.Single.Day. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about how lucky I am to have him; even the days when he makes me insane … more insane. I realize I’d rather be driven nuts by him for a moment than not to have him in my life at all. I am thankful for the smirk he gives me; I am thankful for the look of horror on his face when I bust out a showtune; I am just plain thankful. I don’t know where I’d be, or who I’d be, if I hadn’t met him all those years ago.

I am thankful for music and pets and soft blankets and breathing and speaking, and having a voice to use, and use often. I realize we are still facing a tough time in this country; we are still facing division; we are still seeing our Black and Brown brothers and sisters killed by police; we are still seeing our trans brothers and sisters murdered; we still see hate; we are seeing hatred towards refugees fleeing their homeland to come to a country built by, immigrants and slaves.

But I remain hopeful, hope filled, and thankful, that this country, most of this country, will once again stand against that hate and divisiveness; I am thankful that we will stand for one another and not against one another; that we will stand up to those who hate; speak out against those who use fear to intimidate others; resist those who are untruthful. I am thankful that more and more people are standing up for those who may not feel like anyone would ever stand for them.

I am thankful for that … and thinking being feeling loving breathing laughing crying living and speaking.

For Life … and all it encompasses.

To Life.

Thanks. 

20 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Happy Thanksgiving to you and Carlos! Oh, and Tuxedo too, of course.

Sixpence Notthewiser said...

Happy thanksgiving!

XoXo

Dave R said...

Happy Thanksgiving!! I do believe sanity might be just around the corner.

anne marie in philly said...

thankful for all my blog friends and for the 80M people who voted for uncle joe & aunt kamala! all y'all have a great day!

Frank said...

Thanks for blogging...sorry I don't always comment but there are several of us who belong to the blogger "family". Have a great day!

the dogs' mother said...

xoxo to you all!
And thankful for you and
Carlos! :-)

BloggerJoe said...

Hey Bob and Carlos and pets and family! Have a happy, gut-filled, wonderful day! We're comfortably ensconced on various chairs and couches with the fireplace glowing and listening to music and dog snoring while pecan pies bake and chocolate chip cookies cool. We started early with a multi-course breakfast accented with mimosas, even the dog got some scrambled eggs and bacon!
Thanks for reminding me that despite what may be happening in the world, they can't take away our happiness.

Patrick said...

Happy Thanksgiving to you and Carlos, hope you have a lovely day.
Best wishes
Patrick

Travel said...

Happy Thanksgiving, the best is yet to come

Lesley Duncan said...

Happy Thanksgiving and thank you for your blog. I enjoy it every single day.

uptonking said...

Grateful for you posts... love your blog. Happy Thanksgiving. Enjoy!

Agnes Goldberg-DeWolfs said...

What a heartwarming post. I enjoyed reading that.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sadie J said...

Happy Thanksgiving to you, your significant other, and your furry children!

Mistress Maddie said...

I always love this post for reason you talk of. It's a wonderful holiday.to just be thankful for what we have...and good health being one.

Happy Thanksgiving to you both!
🦃🦃🦃🦃🦃🍁🍁🍁🍁🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆

Susan said...

As always, Bob, A beautiful, heartfelt post. Happy TG to you, Carlos, and all those delightful fur babies!

Treaders said...

Just beautiful Bob. Happy Thanksgiving to you and Carlos}

Jimmy said...

Wonderful post. Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.

VRC-Do You! said...

Happy Thanksgiving to you, Carlos, and the kids!!

Moving with Mitchell said...

Happy Día de Acción de Gracia to you and Carlos. I am always thankful for you!

Debbie said...

No one can write a hysterically funny sarcastic blog like you Bob, but you can also write so beautifully about being thankful and grateful for life and all it's amazing ups and downs, joys and sorrows. I'm very happy I found you because you can ALWAYS make me laugh out loud! Hope you and Carlos had a very HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Be Safe! And hopefully 2021 will bring sanity back and Trump will end up in prison!!!! Fingers Crossed!

XOXOXOXXO
Deb